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January 3, 2006Approaching OptimismIt's the first few days of the new year, and the last couple of days of this nice, long vacation before having to go back to The Really Real World. It may be because I have all day today and all day tomorrow in which to wallow around in my PJ's and I'm heroically putting off feeling the inevitable, but I have no impending sense of dread about going back to work, school, life. It's a feeling that is somewhat close to approaching optimism, which is weird considering the fact that a mere three weeks ago I felt like life... well, don't talk to me about life. There is no real cause to feel this way. The bills are still there, the job is still the job, and my degree is still unfinished. Marie is still dramatic, Michael and Lilly and the babies are still a six hour drive away, and I'm still homesick. It could be that the only reason I feel mildly upbeat about going forward with life is the fact that taking a vacation actually does work to refresh the mind, body and spirit (imagine!). So maybe I should check in again with said mind/body/spirit next Wednesday and see if they have descended into the Pit of Despair. I do actually like having a routine, much as the culturally sophisticated like to pooh-pooh and declare that Routine = Rut. I plan to make a couple of positive changes that I hope will infiltrate seamlessly (and painlessly?) into my current routine. Which is kind of a first for me. My current routine just kind of evolved, and I don't remember doing anything consciously to orchestrate it. They're really small things - getting up an hour earlier, getting my breakfast and lunch ready the night before, laying out my clothes the night before, putting away the laundry before the end of the weekend. Small things, but they will allow me to have less stress, get ready for work at a more leisurely pace, eat healthier, not blow off my work-outs because I'm too tired after work, not run late, and not suffer Calvin's entreaties of, "Do I have any clean socks anywhere?" I'm trying to think of some changes I can make at work as well, to make the day go by less painfully. I have somewhat less control over my environment at work, though, what with those pesky meetings and people showing up whenever they feel like it to ask me to do things. Plus I'm taking on some more responsibilities with this new year, so I shall have to wait and see how things go. School starts again tonight. Of all things, that's the one thing I'm really not that much looking forward to. If it were more interesting I'm sure I would feel differently, but a Management degree isn't the same as, oh, studying VH1's "I Love the 70's". The damn prerequisites are nearly putting me to sleep. And I don't even want to be a Manager. But I'm too far along to switch now. Perhaps I can get my Master's in Bellydancing. Except I doubt AcronymCo would pay for it. A less than interesting entry, but these are the things that are on my mind today. Here's some pictures that Calvin took, to leaven the lump.         Comments on this entry? Head on over to The Blog! |
