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Three years ago today you made the decision to be with me. Our friendship had grown, and grown, and continued to grow far beyond what we ever thought it would. We recognized in each other something that had been absent from our lives for too long, and found in each other the one that compliments, completes, and fulfills our heart's needs. The acknowledgement of our need to be together was almost more painful than the denial of it. Circumstances did not make the birth of our relationship easy, and we prayed that our beginning would not have a negative effect on our future. Two years ago today we were stunned with the realization that an entire year had passed, in a heartbeat. We were so busy, and so stressed, and so worried that damage done to us in the past, by our former partners, would haunt our future together. Yet we were continuing to cultivate the firm foundation we would continue to enjoy in the days and months ahead, and that foundation certainly was needed for some rocky times. In the midst of the difficulties, though, we were discovering a sweetness in becoming a family. It was easier and more difficult than any of us would have imagined, but as each day passed we all came to the realization that here was something special. Here was something solid. Here was something lasting. One year ago today we were in the beginning stages of modifying our home to accommodate our family's needs. And in that act came the confirmation that we are a family, the four of us together. The ease in which we simply slipped into lifetime commitment was so seamless it was almost unnoticed. Assumed. Accepted without thought. But never taken for granted. We realized each and every day how beautiful and rare our relationship is, how well suited we are for one another. Each of us found cause every day to say "But I'm just not used to this!" because the near-perfection of our relationship was almost too good to be true. So we threw ourselves into our lives, our love, our family. We poked and prodded for weaknesses, and only found strength. Today we are learning to relax. We are beginning to suspect that neither one of us is going to hurt the other. We are beginning to accept that we are not a dream that we're going to wake up from any minute. With the disappearance of that fear comes the appearance of a different fear - losing one another. The closer we get to each other, the deeper we go into each other's psyches and hearts and feelings - the more we worry about one another's well being. We fret at any second that we have to spend apart. But it's sometimes easier to be apart knowing that we will be coming home to one another. I love you, Calvin, and I love the memories that you have gifted me with. I love you for the memories you will give me in the future. I never thought it would be possible to be this happy in a relationship, but you have shown me that the possibilities for happiness are endless. I don't distrust life any longer, because of you. I don't distrust love any longer, only because of you. And because you know me, you understand what a big deal that is for me. Thank you for gifting me with your heart. I promise to take good care of it. All my love, Laura |