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October 29, 2003 Meditating Things have been happening - deep, internal things where my mind kind of goes spelunking into the depths. Sometimes it's like I'm in the bottom of a well, and I feel like I have a split view - one from above looking down, and one from below looking up, and around. Sometimes it seems like I'm more aware of what's going on inside my head than what's going on around me. And sometimes I will just lay, eyes open and staring, or shut and chasing the patterns of light against my lids. It feels to me like I'm surrounded in a bubble of stillness and graceful motions, while everything around me speeds by and becomes blurred. I'm taking deep breaths. I'm listening. I'm becoming more deliberate. I crave the quiet, the better to listen to my heart and mind. I lay on a blanket in the grass in the back yard and stare up at the few stars that can be seen in the city. I wonder if my loved ones think I'm outside because I didn't want to be with them - I wonder if they'd understand that it's because I'm drawing closer to them. The sky is vast, the peace is blanketing. The light is spilling from the windows into warm patterns. The sounds of laughter and conversation from within the house project starkly and vividly, the beating heart of our family. My mind is quiet. I feel like I'm sinking into the ground while the world is spinning around me. I feel like if I relax well enough, and concentrate gently enough, I will be able to perceive the spin of the Earth on its axis. I stare at the dimmest stars, casting my eyes to trick them into seeing what is barely visible. I'm breathing deeply and feeling my chest expand beyond what it's used to. I'm feeling my heart expand beyond what it's used to. Comments on this entry? Head on over to Colloquial!

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