Thursday, June 28, 2007

To Calvin, on the occasion of our fifth wedding anniversary.

"Lullaby"
Dixie Chicks

They didn't have you where I come from
Never knew the best was yet to come
Life began when I saw your face
And I hear your laugh like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

I slip in bed when you're asleep
To hold you close and feel your breath on me
Tomorrow there'll be so much to do
So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

As you wander through this troubled world
In search of all things beautiful
You can close your eyes when you're miles away
And hear my voice like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up


Forever is not nearly enough.

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Grumpety grump grump

I am starting to get quite jealous of Fred and Robyn's garden. Lookit this picture! And this one!

Life just can't be as difficult as it has lately, for crying out loud. Calvin and I are in one hell of a slump, mood-wise. No motivation or general cheeryness to speak of. Just... none. We're even starting to be not-nice to each other, which is the red flag of red flags. Because generally we're on the same side, but lately we're just nitpicking at each other. Plus I haven't been feeling well, which I'm sick of, and which Calvin is sick of, and for Pete's sake, can I not just be HEALTHY?!? I take care of myself, I take my medicine, and it just seems like every time I go to the doc's there's something else wrong with me. Allergies. Asthma. Pancreatitis. Gallstones. Kidney cysts. Acid Reflux. Hyperthyroidism. I don't even want to wonder what might be next.

Just shoot me now.

So how does one swing this pervasive mood around, when there is just nothing but WORK WORK WORK to look forward to? Working at jobs we dislike, working on the house to get it ready to sell it, whenever we're ready for that. Working to reduce our debt and not add to it. Working to keep ourselves and each other happy, content, satisfied, amused. What have you.

Feh, I'm just in a crummy mood today. My morning didn't start out well, with tummy troubles that I will forgo the TMI on. And WHY does the cat have to know what I'm doing when I use the commode, I ask you? He should just mind his own business. I don't poke my head in his business when he's scratching and thumping away in the litter box, after all.

Gadget and Gypsy went to the vet (well, I took them... I'd like to see Gadget try to reach the gas while Gypsy steers...) yesterday. Gadget still has a bad case of kennel cough courtesy of Marie's puppy (who is just the cutest sweetest thing and I PROMISE, Heather, I will take pictures of her the next time she visits and post them!), and Gypsy has a milder case, PLUS infections in both ears. PLUS some kind of growth in her mouth that she'll need surgery to remove. They're walking (panting) petri dishes, for crying out loud. So it's drops in Gypsy's ears twice a day, antibiotics for both of them twice a day, and cough medicine (which I'm picking up from Walgreens today) for Gadget every six hours.

Aww, they're just like Mama, falling apart at the seams.

Straight unsweetened organic cranberry juice is NAS-TAY. You remember that episode of Tweety and Sylvester where Tweety fed Sylvester alum, and Sylvester's mouth puckered up to the dimension of a straw, through which he tried to suck Tweety? Yeah, well, that's what this cranberry juice is doing to me. The things I do to try to stay (get?) healthy.

Feh again. Baaaaaaad mood.

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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Health update

In Arizona in the summertime (or well, really, in Arizona at any time), it is a very good idea to remain well hydrated. I am so much so that I am floating away, and leaving my desk every five minutes to go to the little girl's room. Here's the routine:

- One 8 oz glass of water mixed with the juice of one fresh lemon, first thing every morning upon rising (this is good for the digestion).
- One cup of coffee.
- One 1.5 liter bottle of water, consumed throughout the day.
- Two mugs of green tea, one in the morning, one in the afternoon (today it is Stash Fusion Breakfast Green & Black Tea blend).
- One 12 oz glass of cranberry juice sometime during the day (usually diluted with a little bit of water because that stuff is STAH-RONG).

I take a daily regime of digestive enzymes, a multi-vitamin, a calcium supplement, and a fish oil supplement. My skin and hair LOVE ME.

I am also trying to eat more healthy, whole, organic and/or natural foods. Lots of shopping at Trader Joe's for that one. My usual breakfast is a half-cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch, mixed with TJ's blueberry or vanilla yogurt. Lunches have primarily been one of TJ's pre-prepared salads, an apple, a piece of flat bread, and some hummus. Dinners are less disciplined but I try to at least keep the portions down and not coat things with butter, ranch dressing, cheese, or what have you. I leave all that to Calvin.

I also signed us up for a "Community Supported Agriculture" program from Desert Roots Farm. Members pay a fee by growing season, and once a week pick up a bag of freshly grown local produce. The summer season should see a selection of carrots, tomatoes, green beans, peppers, onions, eggplant, cucumbers, basil, leeks, watermelon, zucchini, okra, garlic, cantaloupe, squash, and black-eyed peas.

I would love to have a garden of our own, but it's impossible to grow vegetables in Hell. Well, obviously Desert Roots can do it, but not this girl.

I had a blood test a couple of weeks ago, the results of which showed issues with my thyroid. SO! It's off to yet another doctor, an endocrinologist this time, to get THAT fixed. I swear, ever since having my gallbladder out, my body has just gone to hell in a handbasket. I am sick to death of getting poked with needles and told, "Well, it could be this, or that, or this other thing..." Feh. Damn people mechanics, they really just guess a lot.

There you go, a bunch of information you weren't really interested in. Hey, at least I didn't talk about poo.

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

There and back again.

(This isn't the first entry on which I've used this title.)

So, I'm back! For those of you who want the short version, then I'll just say that everything went well and I should hear back from them with a yea or nay by the second week of July.

For those of you who want the slightly longer version, with pictures, here you go.

I flew out of Arizona at 6:30 a.m. on Thursday morning. It's a three-hour leg to Chicago, then a two-hour leg to Maine. On the first leg, I sat next to a lady that was laughing HYSTERICALLY, way out loud, over the book she was reading. On the second leg, I sat next to a little nine-year-old boy who was travelling by himself to a lacrosse camp in Maine. On the layover in Chicago in between, I sat at the Fox Sports Bar and had myself a beer and a crab cake. During both entire legs of the flight I studied my brains out, going over all of the Factiva information that I printed out about this company, its parent entity, and the industry. I took copious notes. Very copious. Also, I like to say "copious".

I landed in Maine just before 5:00 p.m., grabbed my rental car and swung by the hotel just long enough to shower and change. My hotel was right next to the airport, but could have been in the middle of the wilderness, there was so much greenery around. Plus, there's like three flights a day out of Portland (I exaggerate, but it's no O'Hare), so I could leave my window open all night long and not be disturbed by 737's flying overhead. Here is the view from my hotel window:

The view from my hotel window.


I then departed again, and followed the directions from the hotel to the company I would be interviewing with the next day. That discovered (after only a slight mix up and turn-around), I high-tailed it to the nearest Amato's for Mecca Moment #2 of 2007 (see here for Mecca Moment #1).

Mecca achieved, again.


Then, not wanting to just take my sandwich back to my hotel room to eat, I decided to explore "down the road a piece" and see if I could find a place to sit by the ocean. Well, down the road a piece took me to Prouts Neck. I gawked at the OH MY GOD houses, then pulled into Ferris Beach, took off my flip flops, grabbed my camera, cell phone, and crack (italian and Humpty Dumpty "All Dressed" potato chips), and walked down to the sandy beach. I sat a few feet from the surf, scarfed my food, and called Calvin to describe to him where I was and what I was doing (and how it was totally surreal that I was back in Maine again, but without him this time).

Despite the fact that I was missing Calvin, I was HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY to be there at that moment in time. I can't even begin to describe it, but I think the other patrons of the beach were wondering why I had a constant and wacky grin on my face.

I walked up and down the beach for an hour or so, taking pictures and sucking in the wonderfully cool salt air (it was 116 in Phoenix that day, 68 in Maine at dusk, and I was trying very womanfully to NOT rub it in with Calvin).

Sea Grass at Prouts Neck

Prouts Neck Maine

Prouts Neck Maine

More sea grass and beach, Prouts Neck

Some guys fishing off of Prouts Neck. Notice how they're up to their waists so close to shore.

Prouts Neck at dusk

Prouts Neck

obligatory feet in sand shot


I REALLY didn't want to pull myself away from the beach, but I knew I had a couple of hours more study time to put in before my interview in the morning. So I meandered back to the hotel, got into my jammies, put some TV on in the background, ironed my suit, and wrote notes until my hand cramped. Then I called Calvin and went over the information I'd found and the questions that I'd listed to ask, just to make sure I didn't sound like a dumbass.

The alarm went off at 7:00 the next morning, and I got ready to go, had two cups of coffee, drove to the business, and had about a half-hour to spare before my 9:00 appointment. So I sat and fretted and listened to the radio until about ten 'til. I signed myself in and got a stinkin' badge, then cooled my heels for another few minutes before the administrator came to get me.

She sat me down in a conference room and had me perform a timed logic test. The type were there are a series of letters and/or numbers that form a pattern that may or may not be obvious, and I have to produce what the next letter or number of the pattern would be. For instance, if "aabbcc" was the pattern provided, the next letter would be "d". Believe me, they started out that simple but didn't stay that way for long. After a while I was scratching my head and muttering, "What the fuck?" I was relieved when the administrator reappeared to say my time was up.

At 10:00 I met with the man that would be my boss. We ran through my resume and I described to him my work history. He described what the position would entail and a bit about the company, and at half past the hour he was wrapped up with his questions, and asked me if I had any of my own.

Heh. So! I opened up my portfolio, set aside the stack of papers I'd researched, flipped through my PAGES of notes, and asked him a WHOLE BUNCH of questions. I kept him going on those for another half an hour. I think a couple of times he was surprised at what I knew and what I'd gleaned about the company from the reading that I did.

At 11:00 I met with one of the VP's of the company, and right off the bat he told me the first gent would be the one to make the decision, and his role was just to see if I would be a good fit, personality-wise, for the company. He said he could see that I was obviously "well qualified", so I was chuffed at that. We really just chit-chatted about the group, the person who'd previously held the role that I was interviewing for, his own tenure of over 25 years, family stuff, AcronymCo's industry versus the one they are in, and just basically tangented a lot. He asked me why I wanted to move back to Maine, and totally understood when I described to him how I just wanted to come home again.

At noon the first gent picked me up in front of the lobby, and we met two other folks from the company for lunch. They talked a lot about common acquaintances and common experiences, so I just basically nodded and smiled a lot. Then the gent and I went to take a tour of one of their facilities and inspect a project that was going on there. Finally at about 2:30 in the afternoon he dropped me back off at the lobby, and I was finally done.

I went back to the hotel and got out of my suit (and pantyhose, ugh), and called Calvin to tell him how it went. Then I called my sister and left her a message letting her know I was in town, and called my uncle's house to talk to his girlfriend (he was out of town).

I showered and dressed in jeans (thank GOD), and drove over by the mall to kill some time. I browsed through Borders Books and Music, and called my cousin to see if she and her husband wanted to get together with me that evening. We agreed to meet at LL Bean in Freeport at 9:00 that night, so I grabbed a quick beer at Uno's and went back to the hotel for a nap.

I got up at about 5:45 and was away again by 6:00. My plan was just to meander my way up to Freeport from Portland, taking the back roads and maybe stopping at one or two beaches along the way. Driving the roads in Maine is just so beautiful, even when you're not going anywhere in particular. It's wonderfully enjoyable to poke around the curvy, twisty roads, looking at all of the trees and beautiful farms and houses, with glimpses of the ocean beyond the foliage.

I got lost on purpose. I'm one of those people who HAS to know where a road leads. So I'd find a likely turn, wander down that road until another one caught my fancy, then steer down that one. I actually talked to myself, "My lordy, I am so lost. I don't even know what town I'm in anymore. Hey, I wonder where this road goes? It's got to come out somewhere. It's fun being lost..."

"La la la."

When I purposefully tried to get myself back to where I needed to be, I ended up taking a road that dumped me right in the middle of Freeport directly across the street from LL Bean. I am that good, people.

It was barely after 7:00 when I arrived at "Bean's", so I spent a leisurely hour shopping for clothes. I got myself a pair of light, white cotton pants, a baby blue camisole, a slightly darker blue knit button-up sweater, and a pair of Bean's signature slides. It was durn chilly by the time I was done, so I put the sweater on immediately, and wandered around talking with Calvin on the cell and looking for a way to kill another hour before my cousin and her husband showed up.

I went to Jameson Tavern and had a beer while enjoying the live guitarist, and left again at 8:30 to stroll back towards Beans. Calvin kept me company on the phone until they arrived.

My cousin and I used to spend a lot of time together when we were children. She is the only daughter of my mother's oldest brother. We spent entire summers together, a few weeks at her house, a few weeks at my house with Grandma, every holiday, and many weekends. She's a little over three years younger than me - we played hard, fought harder, then would catch each other's eye in the middle of a knock-down-drag-out wrestling match, and laugh hysterically.

Since we've grown up, and of course since I moved away from Maine, we've hardly seen one another at all. So I was very excited and really appreciated that they'd take the 45 minute drive, when they had to work the next morning, to come down to Freeport from where they live in Augusta, just to have dinner with little ol' me.

We went back to Jamesons and took a table in the restaurant side. We gabbed AND gabbed AND gabbed, about absolutely everything, trying to pack years of catching up into a couple of hours. My cousin and I are scarily alike, a fact that her husband commented on several times.

We paused to take a breath and look around, and realized it was almost 11:00 and we were the only ones left in the place. Which closed at 10:00.

Oops.

We went outside and sat at the little bistro tables they had set up on the front porch of the restaurant (a house built in 1791 and renovated), and talked for ANOTHER hour. We finally wrapped it up a little after midnight, since they had to work in the morning.

I took one more beeline through LL Bean to use their bathroom before getting in the car to drive back to Portland. They're open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, even Christmas. You'd be surprised how many people were there shopping at 12:15 on a Friday night/Saturday morning.

I forgot how dark it gets in Maine at night. There aren't many street lights around, so I practiced my high beam skills. Hit the high beams, watch for cars coming toward you going in the other direction, hit the low beams, wait for them to pass by, hit the high beams, watch for cars... hit the low beams... wait for them to pass... hit the high beams...

I got back to the hotel at a little after 1:00, called Calvin to let him know I was safe, and hit the sack.

I slept in until 9:00 the next morning. My flight didn't leave until 1:30, so I took my time getting ready and packing. I had breakfast in the hotel restaurant while reading a book, and checked in at the airport at 11:30.

During the leg from Portland to Chicago I got to have a row of seats to myself. But the guy behind me was such an obnoxious conversationalist that I put my iPod on in self-defense. I mean, he was going on and ON about how he would only hang out with people with "old money", never with "new money". WHAT ever.

Chicago O'Hare was an absolute ZOO. My gate information wasn't on the board when I arrived, so I checked in with customer service, then sat at the bar at Chili's for a beer and southwestern egg rolls. It turned out that my flight, that was originally supposed to leave at 5:10, didn't actually get off the ground until nearly 7:00. If I had known I was going to be that delayed, I would have called Heather and asked her to hang out with me. I paced, I read, I got Starbucks, I pee'd about fifty times, I read some more. Then when I finally boarded the plane, I got seated next to this guy that smelled of cigarettes and bad breath, and he wouldn't stop getting into my personal bubble space. He annoyed the hell out of the other person in our row, the flight attendant (he pushed the call button, like, ten times to ask her why the fasten seatbelt sign was on... EVERY TIME it came on), and even the people in the row across from us. And he was in the MIDDLE seat, so you know that he had to lean across the other lady (I was in the window seat) to annoy the others.

Feh. By the time we landed in Phoenix I couldn't get off that plane fast enough. I called Calvin, who was circling the area, when I got my luggage, and he pulled up in front so I could just hop in and go. We stopped at home long enough for me to change and freshen up, and then got dinner at the Elephant Bar.

So there you go. A whirlwind, 6000-mile round trip from (almost) coast to coast, in about 60 hours. Peppered with good food, good conversation, a nerve-wracking interview process, and many many calls home.

I'll let you guys know as soon as I hear anything about the job. Thanks again for all of your well-wishing and support!

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Leaving on a jet plane

A quote from my entry from May 18th

"I just sat and breathed for a long, long time. It felt so good to be there, and when it came time to leave I kept stopping and looking around to try to infuse my spirit and mind with the peace I felt there. The whole trip was filled with moments like this, as I tried to take away as much of Maine as I could, not knowing the next time I would be able to be there again."

Okay, so apparently "next time" is June 21st, 2007. If you had told me then that I'd be back in Maine barely a month later, I'd have accused you of hitting the peace pipe.

I am very excited about my trip, and very nervous about my interview. I have hit Factiva and printed out a bunch of information about this company and the industry in which it dwells, and I plan to study up on the flight so I can wow them with my "expertise". Heh.

Calvin and I went shopping last weekend and I bought a new suit for the occasion. I feel very swank in it.

Calvin and I are trying not to put the cart in front of the horse, here, but we've done a lot of "what if" discussions should a rapid departure from Arizona be imminent. And we've looked at houses on Realtor.com. We really like this one. Wish we were in the position to buy now, because when we ARE ready, this puppy will have been sold.

Such is our timing on this whole situation. We're not ready to move, but we're ready for a change. We're not ready to sell, but we want to buy.

Cart, horse, etc. I haven't even gotten the job yet, so all of this woolgathering and angst and "what ifs" may as yet be moot.

I'll post about how it all went on Saturday night or Sunday morning. In the meantime, cross your fingers for me!

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

You guys have GOT to see this little girl.

Here. And also here.

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

Pimp

This site is brilliant.

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100 More Things

See previous installment here, which was a little over three years ago. And most things still apply. But I am a very complex woman, ergo you get to know two hundred things about me.
  1. I like my eggs over medium. Just right for dipping triangles of toast into the yolk, without grossing myself out with undercooked egg.

  2. I like Disney endings. Therefore, any book/TV show/movie/whathaveyou that doesn't have a happy ending, pisses me off.

  3. I will not touch any bug, ever. Not to step on, not to slap, not to squish. When I feed the lizards their worms and whatnot, I use the feeding tongs.

  4. I only get manicures and pedicures when I'm going on vacation.

  5. I love maps. I love looking at them, plotting trips and routes, and putting little flags on them where I've visited. My office walls are lined with maps, which tells people (accurately) that I'd rather be anywhere but my office.

  6. I have a very limited amount of patience for stupidity. The amount of time that elapses between my encounter with a stupid person, and my inevitable implosion, decreases with each passing year.

  7. I HATE folding laundry. Second to that on the list of top household chores that I hate is cleaning out the vivarium.

  8. As long as I have good music to listen to, I have an inexhaustible amount of patience when stuck in traffic.

  9. When I was little I used to listen through walls using the old ear-to-glass method. You'd be surprised how well that works. I wouldn't have to resort to spying if my family hadn't kept so many damned secrets.

  10. My sister found the notebook I used to scribble my spy-findings in (ala Harriett) between the mattresses of my bed years after I had moved away. She brings it up a lot, there were incriminating things about her in it.

  11. I can whistle pretty darned well.

  12. Once when I was in my early teens I made a recording of myself singing some Chicago (the band, not the musical) songs. It got into the wrong hands. That ranks as one of my most embarrassing moments.

  13. The other most embarrassing moment was the first time I ever farted in front of Calvin. If I recall correctly, I think I cried.

  14. As I get older, I regret with more frequency that I do not have a mother.

  15. I have never liked Moxie, which in Maine is grounds for deportation.

  16. Every time Calvin and I go through an automated car wash I'm tempted to suggest that we hop in the back seat and have sex.

  17. I'm good at my job, but I don't particularly like it.

  18. I believe in spankings. I do not believe in beatings.

  19. The 2008 Presidential Elections will be the first in which I am a registered voter. However, I will still exercise my right not to vote if there are nothing but bozos on the ticket.

  20. I would eat a lot healthier if I were single. But I eat a lot funner being married.

  21. I totally resent exercise.

  22. I have been known to read three entire books in a single day.

  23. I ignore the entire world when a new book from one of my favorite authors comes out. Especially if I've been waiting for a long time. I'm looking at YOU, Jean M. Auel.

  24. This go around, I'm having a harder time coming up with 100 things than I did last go around.

  25. My self-image is probably a lot harsher than reality.

  26. I am obsessed with this website.

  27. I confess that Calvin and I have gone out and bought a featured booze after seeing it on Three Sheets. The last purchase made thusly was a bottle of Pappy's.

  28. I will never understand nor condone the use of watermelon in any soup, hot or cold.

  29. I will never understand nor condone the purchase and wearing of Crocs (the original traditional weird ones - they've expanded their product line and have some more acceptable options now).

  30. I hate having my toes pulled on.

  31. The last time I had to have an IV, I cried a little.

  32. I can tolerate watching The Sound of Music, now that I am 22 years beyond performing as Brigitta.

  33. If I didn't have my iPod with its noise cancelling headphones, I would have performed a homicide at work by now.

  34. Every time I think of it, it still seems weird to me that Patrick Dempsey is from Maine.

  35. Garlic salt has replaced all regular salt on my food. There are no circumstances that I have come across where regular salt should be used instead. Except for baking pies, cakes, and cookies, that is.

  36. Grandma used to get mad at me for eating all of the sweet peas out of her garden before they ever had a chance to make it to the table.

  37. I have always wanted to visit the Puget Sound in Washington.

  38. Of all of the foreign countries I could visit, Europe is at the top of my list and Asia is at the bottom. I don't exactly know why that is. The funny thing is, given my job and the company that I work for, I am more likely to go to Asia than I am Europe.

  39. I have never been in or near a tornado, but I have nightmares about them.

  40. I like strawberries better than blueberries, but I'd rather have blueberry pie than strawberry pie.

  41. My favorite kind of pie is coconut cream. NOT meringue.

  42. To me, eating meringue is like eating fluffy plastic.

  43. I hate the use of the phrase, "without further ado". I mean, READ that. It makes no sense.

  44. Lilacs are my favorite flower and scent.

  45. I kind of wish that werewolves and vampires were real.

  46. If I could have a superpower, I would want the ability to fly. Sometimes I have flying dreams that are so vivid, that when I first wake up I could swear that I could retain the ability while conscious.

  47. I'm disappointed that the Storyteller project never really got off the ground.

  48. I haven't written a short story since this one. I need to tap into that hobby again.

  49. I don't like watching baseball on TV, but I like going to a game. I could say it's because of the beer that I like to go to the ballpark, but I could drink beer at home while watching it on TV, so I don't know. I'm a complex person, I guess.

  50. It might make me a bad person, but I have favorites among my pets. I claim the Fifth on that question with respect to my children.

  51. I am pro-choice, but would not have an abortion myself.

  52. I think someone should take a contract out on Paris Hilton. If it actually happens, well, I saw some kids running...

  53. Most weekends I wake up at about 8:00. I can lay there staring up at the ceiling with my brain wandering around (nice visual, that) for over a hour before I finally lever myself out of bed.

  54. No matter how hot the summers get (and it gets HOT here), I still want a steaming cup of coffee first thing in the morning. In fact, 'want' doesn't cover it. It's more of a necessity - for me, and everyone who may have to deal with me that day.

  55. Some times I contemplate "coming out" on my journal and using my real name. Other times I am quite grateful that not much at all comes up when you Google my real name.

  56. Yes, I HAVE vanity Googled. And so have you.

  57. Something about car trips makes me need to pee frequently. But I can go all day sitting in my cubicle without having to go once.

  58. I don't really like Clint Eastwood. Oh, as a person I'm sure he's a nice guy. I've just never cared for his movies.

  59. I bought a guitar in December but I haven't played (with) it very much at all. I have plenty of opportunities to practice, I just... don't.

  60. I'm not the only one who thinks that pizza is the universe's answer to the perfect all-in-one food. Meat, dairy, grains, veggies, it's all there.

  61. Sometimes I forget to breathe. This is less related to the fact that I have asthma, and more related to the way that I deal with stress. I guess turning blue is part of my process.

  62. I have very few friends from my childhood that I still keep in touch with.

  63. My favorite color is blue and has been for my entire life.

  64. I'm a little bit afraid of my motorcycle. Though it could be more the idiots that are on the roads around here that are scaring me more than my own (lack of) riding ability that is scaring me, I don't know.

  65. I didn't plan where my life has ended up thus far. I hope that my lack of planning continues to be this successful.

  66. I sleep with three pillows. One to lie on, one to snuggle with, and one to throw on the floor at some point during the night.

  67. I used to have a bad recurring nightmare about featureless faces staring in at me through my windows at night, and as a result I can't leave the blinds open after dark.

  68. Oz likes Calvin more than he likes me.

  69. I have read the "Little House on the Prairie" series entirely through approximately seventeen times. My favorite book was "Farmer Boy".

  70. I like Matt Damon infinitely more than Ben Affleck. It seems to me that Matt Damon becomes his characters, while Ben Affleck is just Ben Affleck playing some guy in a movie.

  71. Spell check is not working on this entry for some reason, so it will probably be fraught with mistakes and I will be outted as illiterate.

  72. A pretty boy is less attractive to me than one that can make me laugh.

  73. I like to eat cold Chinese food right from the container with my fingers.

  74. I use a file sharing program to download songs to see if I like the song/album/artist. If I do, I usually go out and buy their CD. Using this method, I have far less "listen once and then ignore forever" CD's in my collection.

  75. The first time I ever met a black man I told him in complete innocence and earnestness that he had a nice tan. I was six and he was a friend of my sister's. They laughed their asses off while I tried to figure out what was so funny.

  76. I am so entrenched in my morning routine that I sometimes stop in the middle of things and can't remember if I completed a step. Case in point, I once shampooed my hair twice because I couldn't remember after I put the conditioner in if I had shampooed first.

  77. I have a gun and I know how to shoot it, but I couldn't hit the broad side of a barn if I was standing five feet in front of it.

  78. I used to go for a long drive when I was upset or angry, doing a circuit of the freeway systems and blasting cathartic tunes. I haven't had to do that in a long time.

  79. I DON'T FLOSS. Four out of five dentists lecture me every chance they get.

  80. I can remove my bra without taking my shirt off. This magic trick is passed from female to female during the super secret First Bra Ritual.

  81. I could never be a school teacher. I don't have the patience. I'm a really cool babysitter, though.

  82. I get songs stuck in my mind for DAYS.

  83. I hated Taco Bell for years. Now we eat it about once a week. My favorites are the chicken quesadilla and double decker taco supreme.

  84. I'm starting to become a fan of Formula One racing.

  85. I'm still not a fan of NASCAR.

  86. Aimless whistlers are first on my list to take down.

  87. Last month I saw Porky's (one AND two) for the first time ever. Calvin was horrified that I had somehow missed this pillar of cinematic genius. He went out and rented the movies the moment I admitted this gap in my cultural upbringing.

  88. I used to LIVE for swimming when I was little. Now I can't remember the last time I went swimming. That probably has less to do with any distaste for the act, and more to do with how I look in a bathing suit.

  89. I think text messaging is dumb. And not just because I am extraordinarily bad at it.

  90. I would totally have sex with the guy that invented blue jeans.

  91. I know every word of every song on WHAM!'s "Make It Big" album.

  92. The first record (RECORD, as in vinyl) I ever bought was the "Footloose" album. Or was it Michael Jackson's "Thriller"? One of those.

  93. When I was a teenager, my bedroom walls were papered with horse posters, and my locker was lined with posters of Johnny Depp and Richard Greco.

  94. I have flip flops for every occasion.

  95. I can't wear lipstick. It drives me nuts.

  96. Some people's ring tones make me want to shove their cell phones... where the sun doesn't shine.

  97. I probably inspire that feeling in others. My current ring tone is "Dancing Queen".

  98. If I sat on my hands I wouldn't be able to talk.

  99. My worst habit is interrupting people when they're speaking. That's mostly because if I don't speak the thought right as it comes to me, I'll forget what I wanted to say.

  100. I'll probably try this exercise again in another three years. I'll still be blogging, you bet your bippy.

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Friday, June 15, 2007

Thanks!

Hey you guys, thanks to all the folks who have been leaving me such nice comments and sending me such nice e-mails, wishing me well on my upcoming interview. I'm trying not to mind-frack (heh, been watching BSG) myself over this, but it's hard.

I'm torn. Almost exactly half of me wants them to make an offer I can accept, and almost exactly half of me hopes they don't make an offer. If I get the offer, Calvin and I will be plunged into a whirlwind of departure prep, up to and including getting the house ready for sale. We would have to live apart for an undetermined amount of time. BUT we would finally have a foothold in Maine, which is where I've wanted to be for, oh, 14 YEARS.

If they don't make an offer, Calvin and I are free to make a more controlled exit from Arizona. We can continue to pay down our debt, fix the house up in a more leisurely manner, and then job hunt when we're more prepared to make a move.

I applied to that job on a whim, not really figuring that anything would come of it. So I guess if something does come of it, it was "meant to be".

It's nerve wracking, though.

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Thursday, June 14, 2007

all... by... MY... self...

Reruns of CSI on Spike.

Popcorn for dinner.

Bed at 9:30.

Aimless internet browsing.

Three books up, three books down.

Two discs of Battlestar Galactica: Season 2.0.

Pets don't talk back (well, except for Oz).

Transformers actually looks *good*.

Unanswered calls = immediate tendrils of anxiety.

Returned calls = sheepish confession of worry.

Sigh count: 1,352,547. Mostly generated by boredom.

Could work out... nah.

Give the dogs a bath? Nah.

Read another book? Might as well.

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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Kind of creepy

This site kind of creeps me out.

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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

stuff and awww and kvetching

Yesterday I dropped Calvin off at the airport, went to Trader Joe's and stocked up on salads for my lunches and dinners for this week (I do NOT cook for myself if I don't have to - this behavior hearkens back to when I was single and eating plates of asparagus for dinner), got home, folded/hung up/otherwise put away five loads of clean laundry, got the call from the company in Maine for me to fly out and interview with them next week, freaked out a little bit, did some work-work, washed and dried the sheets and put them back on the bed, talked to Calvin when he landed in Texas, did some more work-work, dusted and de-cluttered the bedroom, talked to Calvin as he was driving from the airport to his hotel, cleaned the kitchen for an HOUR (even though that is MICHAEL'S JOB but I was sick of seeing the mess after three days of not getting done and apparently the "talk" that Calvin had with him last week did LOADS of good), talked to Calvin when he got to his hotel room, worked out, fed the dogs, fed the cat, fed the lizards, fed myself, talked to Calvin while he was at a restaurant eating his dinner, read off and on, got the coffee ready for the morning, packed my lunch for the next day, read some more, talked to Calvin before he went to bed, then went to bed myself at about 9:30.

When Calvin is away I tend to keep myself busy. Tonight I plan on giving the dogs a bath, moving Lucy to her own tank because Cheeto keeps picking on her, watching the next disc in season two of Battlestar Galactica, and probably reading some more.

As of yesterday, Marie is officially moved out. I say officially, even though she's been pretty much living with her boyfriend for a couple of months, because she removed all of her clothing, her stereo, and her snake. She and her boyfriend are sharing a house with another friend of theirs (they were staying at his mom's house before), about two minutes away from our house. She doesn't want me to come over and see their place until "everything is put away and set up and CLEAN". Heh. They went shopping for towels and linens and bedding yesterday. Heh again. I remember when that kind of stuff used to be sooooo coooool. Playing house is fun, in the beginning.

I haven't seen much of Michael since he got his motorcycle back up and running on Sunday night. I'm kind of annoyed at him right now, for the whole not-doing-the-kitchen thing, among other things. Calvin's talking-to should have had him stepping up and doing his chores and LOOKING for other things to do around the house, just to please us. I also researched and printed up a LOOOONG list of potential jobs that he could be applying to, since he doesn't make enough at his current job to enable him to move out, and he didn't seem inclined to do the research himself. To my knowledge, he hasn't followed up on any of those. Calvin told Michael that he had to be out by August 31st, and that we needed to see a plan from him on how he's going to be out by then. So far, not a peep of what he's done or what he's doing or what he's going to do. When he is around, he's either asleep or upstairs with his girlfriend. When he isn't around, he's either at work or hanging out elsewhere with his girlfriend.

So, I am frustrated. It got to the point a long time ago where I am just as civil to him as the situation warrants, but I don't go out of my way to talk or be nice or much of anything. My shoulders creep up to my ears and my neck ceases up when I hear him come home, and I pretty much just want to close myself in my bedroom and avoid dealing with him altogether. I feel guilty for feeling this way, until I remind myself that his behavior has eroded away my good regard of him until there is not much left but this feeling I have right now.

Michael is the type of person where you can have a "talk" with him, and even yell at him, and even maybe have an argument, and the next day (sometimes that very same day) he will expect everything to be just dandy. As if to say, "What, you're still mad at me? But that was yesterday." He's been eroding away my good regard for a long time, so it's going to take the same amount of time on good behavior to get my good regard back. I don't think he understands this.

And according to my estimation, "good behavior" hasn't even started yet. The issues I've mentioned here are not an all-inclusive list, to be sure.

I haven't been writing about this because I don't want him to read it and get his feelings hurt. But dammit, MY feelings are hurt - have been GETTING hurt for months now - and this is my journal, and I'm not saying anything OF him that hasn't been said TO him, so here I am.

I feel a little bit better now.

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Monday, June 11, 2007

Eeep!

The company in Maine that I did a phone interview with a couple of weeks ago just called me. They want to fly me out next week, put me up in a hotel with a rental car, pay for my meals, take me out to lunch and dinner, have me interview with their muckety mucks, meet the people that would be reporting to me should they decide to offer me the job, and take me on a tour of their properties.

I just dropped Calvin off at the airport - he's doing some training in Texas all this week and is back on Friday. MAN, he needs to land RIGHT NOW so I can talk to him about this.

Once again, the word of the day is, "Eeep".

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Thursday, June 07, 2007

Utterly baffled

"By the fall of 2006, Crocs' first full year of earnings reports as a public company showed that it was a phenomenal grower, and that it wasn't just generating profit-less revenue like an empty-headed dot-com. It was making massive fistfuls of money with its wacky little shoes. Check this out: In 2002, records show the company earned a gross profit of $1,000. In 2003, $27,000. In 2004, $6.3 million. In 2005, $60.8 million. In 2006, $200.6 million."

For the love of God, people, why??? Why on Earth are these FUGLY shoes so damned popular??

Thanks to Blurbomat for the link to the article.

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Sunday, June 03, 2007

i am in yr innernets, stealin yr lols

loloz! My take on the lolcats.




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Friday, June 01, 2007

Pimp

Feasting in Phoenix is the best blog EVER. I'm starting to plan our weekends around the places he reviews. And now? I'm starving.

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